just as I sitting here I'm counting my luck i've been so lucky so many times i quit when the going gets tough .been heart broken a couple of times but still rise up to face another day.I alway ask my self this question why do people get married if they end up being devorced any\way and then move you sideways like you are part of the funiture.there is another thing I can not understand .I would love to belong the thing is if its not about financial backup its about something .if my family couldn't make it then how can I.everyday for so sometime I have been givindg before i'm in too deep and to think it does notwork is another heartache.hope I will soon feel loved and needed.